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2012-03-08T23:25:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday, Faculty of Medicine and Health Sciences UMY!!

2012-03-05T22:45:00.000+08:00

Today is the birthday of the faculty of medicine and health sciences Muhammadiyah University of Yogyakarta . The students release balloons into the air with some wishes list hanging or written on balloons. Despite the rain fells down but the show keep continues. Actually, the show slightly irregular but, well, not bad. The contents of my wishes list itself is just too much , and it's just my wishes about, around and in my faculty, is not wishes about my life more broadly. But i wrote his name on my wishes list, haha . I wrote that I really want to be his girlfriend, gosh that's fucking weird, huh? hihihi. But I think that, actually it's not me who's that lucky if someday we were dating, but he is. Why? Yeah, I found myself objectively as; cute, funny, good, hahahaha, i can cook, and I am someone who's willing to do almost any things for the people I love, as long as it remains within reasonable norms, uh. And I remember the zodiac forecast on XXX magazine I ever read, actually I'm not someone that will believe in zodiac but LOL, let we take it for just fun, so it said that on March 5 all my wishes will come true -AMEN-. Will it comes true Nah, we'll see! haha .

HE-HEY !

2012-03-04T00:06:00.001+08:00

Long time not see, eh I'm kinda lazy these days to write, sorry ~ I know, no one cares . Anyway, I've made some photo/picture/fanart. Whatever. Theme ME hahahaha.

Hellozz~

2011-11-17T22:39:00.001+08:00

Hi whassap it's about a month i'm not posting anythng here, looks like my blog has been empty lol. So what's new from meh after a month There's so many things happen to me, i just can't write it here, too lazeh . lol. I'm a lazy girl, still, even i'd love to change my habit thasso hard fo me .
Btw, i'm never feel lazy o talk about a love life, right And know what, i like someone around me, lol, but i think that he doesn't have the same feeling as mine, at least i see that he doesn't have an interest towards me, oh maaan you know how is it feels like . Dear someone i can't mention, please be kind to me. I like you even i can't show that i like you. But... Don't you think that i always looking at you whenever we meet Don't you know that you are that beautiful to me sigh ...

I Hate the Way You ...

2011-10-08T16:24:00.000+08:00

Don't act like you didn't know anything, i hate the way you act innocent. Don't ask whats wrong with me, i hate the way you ask me as if nothings wrong. YOU CHEAT IN FRONT OF ME hahaha. I don't have any idea should i hate you or not, I'm nothing and i have no rights to be upset actually. But, you know what inside my chest, inside my heart. CAN"T YOU SEE THAT I'M FVCKIN ANGRY AAAAAARRGHH!~ CAN"T YOU UNDERSTAND ME

Hey :)

2011-09-04T20:19:00.001+08:00

Finallyyyyyyy i made my own emoticon its quite cute, right hehe... or not btw, i also let you all use this emoticon so if you wanna use this you can download it from my freebies page but anyway, please dont forget the credits , i put soo much effort to make this emoticon thanks okay, gotta go my sister start yelling at me huh

Bored to death

2011-09-03T17:38:00.000+08:00

Today i've made freebies for you all :) because im soo bored LOL not really cool but not really bad thou :P you may use them and please dont remove the credits :D thankss~~

Pink Kitty Template

Barbie Girl Template

ps : you can take a look in my freebies page for more free stuff :D

Spam Picture

2011-09-02T17:50:00.000+08:00

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I Don't Hate You

2011-09-02T10:49:00.001+08:00

Totally hate you, not you but someone inside you! It's so annoying to see you, Finally i realize it's time for me to move on and forget everything about you *i already did thou, haha. I mean, maybe it's time to really really move on and let you go let you do what you want to do because it's not just because now i realize that i was wrong but also you don't deserve to get my attention and everything from me, and i should remember that i don't deserve to even think about him. I'm not a broken hearted girl, i'm just woke up from a long dream-girl *say what? Thanks for everything and thanks for wakin' me up. I loved you and I don't love you like i do yesterday :) from no on please take care about yourself,

xoxo.

Eid Ul Fitr

2011-08-31T11:19:00.000+08:00

Happy Ied Ul Fitr everyone, anyone !!

AAARGGHH

2011-08-21T13:26:00.005+08:00

4give Me

2011-08-14T17:43:00.003+08:00

Actually I don't deserve to complain about life, I'm not supposed to feel less. O Allah, my only God please forgive me :(

Ramadan Coming!

2011-08-01T11:21:00.001+08:00

Yeah finally it's Ramadan again. Yay! But honestly, i think Ramadan this year is kinda feel come so fast to me. I dont know, maybe it just -dont wanna go back to Jogjakarta- effect, lol. What i love about ramadan is, there is alot of comercial film that wearing islam atmosphere and also the sound of prayers from Mosque, uww~ I'm lovin' it! But, im not fasting right now, just like the last year, i got 'monthly guest' in the 1st day of fasting. It's okay, but its very painful. Ieuw =,=

By the way, i used my holiday time to learn how to cook. Believe it or not, i think I'm kinda expert right now, i am a fast learner lol vwahahaha. I've made some yummy pudding also western food and traditional cake. i wanna make those yummy food for someone special later so i have to prepare it from now on, beside, i guess there is a lot of guys like girl who know how to cook. Hahahaha.

I Hate You (I'm Fine Living Without You)

2011-07-24T00:53:00.002+08:00

You are not that charming. Who wanna listen to that messed crazy rap song? Who wanna see that expensive freak clothes that an old man wear? Who wanna be with someone who's freaking skinny without any muscle and seems like a girl? Yeah, there is someone, and its not me (anymore). I got fooled by you when I thought you are different than the other. But... See? You're just the same as they are. You're going out with someone out there behind and just denying rumors. Yeah, just deny it until you have a baby or until its 7th anniversary. You are not that great, you're not that handsome, you're not that genius, you're not that funny, you're not...

You are the stupid liar ever, and I really really hate your love songs!

Blaaaahhh...

2011-07-21T01:37:00.002+08:00

What do you like about a guy? What do I like about a guy? Hm... I think I write about the kind of guy that I like to much, but ... never mind, i like to write about it. hihi.

Definition of a HANDSOME guy that I think is just too much, i can't define it well, really. But, you know a "handsome attitude", a handsome face, a handsome body language, "a handsome brain", a handsome ... money? haha. Personally and basicly, I love a good looking guy, but good looking without a good personality is a big NO for me. I prefer just an ordinary guy with a supa dupa nice personality than a handsome born guy. It's ... a guy who have a nice personality just look more charming and wow wah kyaaa and ugh compared to the same guy who was born with a handsome face. Believe me or not? Well, you're really stupid if you don't believe it! :P Sometimes, I really like a cold guy, sometimes I really like senseless guy, sometime I really like a guy who is really humorous, but-again, I basically prefer a funny guy who can make the atmosphere more lively, caw~ :D Then.... physically, I really like a tall guy, because I'm short huhu :'(, but not fat! fat + fat = NO for me, hehe. I like a tall+ skinny guy , its also good if he have a muscle, haha. Smart, is also important for me. In this case, smart isn't that he should always winning every contest of cleverness, but you know, smart isn't ONLY about that. Then ... I like a good fighter guy! Yup! It's just because I always want him to protect me from danger any time in unpredictable situation. Then ... I like a popular guy, I think a popular guy definitely have a lot of friends, or at least he is well know by many people. I like a guy who I can be proud of, haha, but of course it's not as important compared with his personality, but well, it's important too, haha, WTF. Well, what else? what else? I think it's enough by now. More specific ...

Korean? Singer, composer? G... Dragon? haha. I expect too much :)

Ummh...

2011-07-13T20:27:00.001+08:00

나는요 오빠가 좋은걸~~ 어떡해??? :(

Lonely

2011-07-08T23:00:00.001+08:00

Cuz I'm just another girl, this night is lonely, I can't take any more, good bye... Cuz I'm just another girl, Even though I'm by your side right now, baby I’m so lonely - 2NE1

Quote Of The Day

2011-07-07T23:40:00.004+08:00

Women wish to be loved not because they are pretty, or good, or well bred, or graceful, or intelligent, but because they are themselves. - Henri Frederic Amiel

I Want...

2011-07-07T16:25:00.002+08:00

Waiting for the one, the day that never comes. When you stand up and feel the warmth, but the sunshine never comes. Love is a four letter word and never spoken here. Love is a four letter word, here in this prison. - Metallica, The Day That Never Comes.

I want to love someone who love me. I want to be loved in different ways. I want to be someone special for someone. I want to be really really loved, I want to be loved sincerely... I don't want to be an object for those who are just looking for a girlfriend, I want to be an object for someone who really care about me. I often reject a guy, just want to know how serious they like and love me, just want to know whether they are going backwards when I reject them, look for another girlfriend, or keep loving me quietly without asking for return from me. I have never found a guy who really loved me seriously. You know what, I don't want to be considered as a popular girl, rich girl, beautiful girl, cute girls, girls who are fit and proper to be made as a girlfriend, I wanted they to see me as an ordinary girl who just looks different when they look at me, when they knew me, when they talk to me, and made their hearts peace when they with me. I want to be loved just the way I am. I want to be loved sincerely and simply. okay, maybe to be loved exaggeratedly also good, haha.

They Made Me Jealous!

2011-07-07T02:01:00.001+08:00

I want a boyfriend! Hahaha. Don't you think it's ridiculous when someone likes me, I'm actually often feel dis-comfortable with them. Too romantic, don't have a good sense of humor, too arrogant, too... too much too! Indeed, there's no perfect guy in this world, yes, i know. But, at least let me find the closest perfect guy, please. Hahaha. Such as ... Prince Thailand, Nickhun 2PM? Yeah, this guy, lately makes me melting in Korean reality show We Got Married with Chinese Princess Victoria f(x). They are ... cute! I mean, not their face (although yes, their face are cute!) but... how shall I explain it? They feed each other, they caring each other, give surprise, taking cute picture together everywhere every time and I just... It just... I feel so jealous of this couple! And Nickhun, such a good guy from heaven! Kyaaak, i want him! How he treat woman, in this case, Victoria, just too sweet. Take a look at them, i think you'll like them too. No, not as fans maybe, or maybe as a fans, IDK, it's up to you, well, just... take a look at them. Here's some cute picture and scene from them :

Kyaaak kyaaak *dying*. Seriously, OMGz! Envy them!

And there are so much more sweet things from them, just watch it, haha. Ah... I want to be like them... but when? When will my turn come out??!! Another Nickhun in this world! Please come around and marry me as soon as possible! hihi.

Went Home, Welcome Back !!

2011-07-04T08:42:00.000+08:00

Jang... Jang...!! I'm home this morning with my older sister. After Batavia Air delayed for 4 hours (fiuh). It was so bored to wait. In the plane, I just take a lot of picture of myself and my sister, haha, here is some of them that i like the most:

Just guess who take this picture when we both sleeping? Hehe.

And some picture of me!! hehe.

Actually i really want to take a lot of full-body picture of myslef, but my sister won't give me a hand. Urgh... She's so lame.

When we finally arrived in Balikpapan, Mommy and Daddy have wait for us. Then we went to the ferry harbour, unfortunately after waiting in line a while, It turned out that the ferry bridge in Penajam broke! So we had to turn around and headed home from Sepaku. And after some hours, finally we got home just as dawn adzan heard. I'm so so tired ...

I Like You, But....

2011-07-01T04:13:00.000+08:00

There so much things i don't like about you , but why its so hard to hate you ? Am i fool or what ? Are you that cool, charming, lovable for me to hate? Grrr... I wonder if you know (geez, i think you are already know that i like you , maybe) what will you do? Do you like me ? Haha. WTH!!! If you read this, at least let me know about what you feel about me, do you like me, do you hate me, do you want me to be your...

What can I do? What should I do? I no longer have your breath here with me, But I am still loving you.What can I do? What should I do? - Love Song, Bi Rain.

BTW, I'm late to the bed tonight, I've changed my blog skin (again and finally) yay ! I'm so excited about this so i can't sleep before it's all done, and then here i am now.... tara~~~ It's 02:40 AM already I'm totally sleepy

a DAY to REMEMBER

2011-04-30T22:31:00.001+08:00

today, such a good day !! so today is my graduation day, finally. i can't explain the feeling i feel. this is some picture i took :

have you seen boys before flower in Indonesian version? LOL its Tofik Purwono, Puthot Adi Saputra, Azanata Darussalam, Mada Rizki Kurnia Rahman and Me.

Me and Siti Rahayu and Satrio Nugroho

Me and Arya Indra from XII SCIENCE 1 and Dede Saputra from XII IPS (forget what class KKK)

Me and Dwi Octo Ariantono and Siti Haryati, its so hard to take a picture with two of them but i got it!!

And this is me with Mada again, we just get better after unspoken words for 1 month maybe, hehe.

im totally tired tonight, so i'll post the another part again!!

New Template

2011-04-17T08:28:00.000+08:00

my new template is SUCK ! im sure i'll make the another one again.

Minky Edition

2011-04-07T17:17:00.001+08:00

i have 3 cats right now, the first one is Oscar, the second is Minky and the last is Stephanie or Stephie. now im gonna tell you about Minky first. Minky is a girl, she love eating and sleep and eating and sleep and eating, LOL. she is typical of lazy cat i think just like me. i slept with her last day, so i gonna upload some picture of us, enjoy !!

my act is so bad

with my lovely doll from my auntie

Minky sleep very easy, she wake up and sleep again. cuteee !

Whatever

2011-04-03T09:00:00.000+08:00

a few days again I will face national examination. Yahoo! ~ I'm so glad, not because I was ready to face all the questions that i will face, but it because I'll leave senior high school as soon (happy but sad also, actually). but, until now I'm still confused where I am going to continue my education. I did not feel i have a talent that is so mean from me. I'm actually quite sensitive to fashion trends, at least I can judge which one is good to wear, that's why I wanted to be a designer, but I was not patient enough to do details things that the designers do. so what would I take later? i'm so confused!

btw, until now I still hostile with one of my friend who was I could not live without him (do not misunderstand this sentence, okay?). Should I apologize? I did not even do something that hurts his heart! God, why there is a hard hearted people like him? he did not even feel guilty. I even try to fix this problem with a reprimand in advance, but good faith I also do not detected from him. okay, never mind ~

Try to Fix Me

2011-03-11T16:16:00.000+08:00

i'm hurt, but you don't even try to fix me. allright, then. let's see what will happen to you!

My BOY :")

2011-02-20T12:09:00.001+08:00

he is so beautiful, and i tell (~~him~~) everyone everyday...

and yes, i'm sure i'll be with him whenever. amen...

Dear My Classmate,

2011-02-18T16:09:00.001+08:00

oh please, I'm tired. okay, I give a clue... I don't wanna have boyfriend for now, unless with "him". if not "him", I'm going to be single until I graduated from high school. got it?

My Valentine

2011-02-11T16:11:00.000+08:00

Well, it seems like i'm going to live in the next valentine alone by my self (without boyfriend) again. It's okay for me, im not alone actually. and of course, i dont wanna boyfriend that i dont really love, just like some people i know, they build a relationship just for fun. uh, thats such an idiot, i think. and i was an idiot, but not anymore. talking about valentine, you know, sometime i just wanna have a beautiful moment in valentine day, i never have such a great valentine all of my life. oh, poor! i wish i have this great moment with GD! haha...

honestly, i have a crush on someone, but... i dont know. i just feel like, its kinda weird. haha. it feels like i have a crush on someone i shouldn't, you know, its hard to explain. i always tell to my self that "you don't need a boyfriend, you know?" and i do believe, i don't need a boyfriend, at least for this time. of course i will have a boyfriend some day, and i hope its him, or better than him. amen...

17 ...

2011-01-27T12:18:00.000+08:00

ahhh... sweet picture, right? I have passed a year alone, being single. and I really want to have a boyfriend. you think that i am so unlucky? whats wrong with me? why there's a lot of cool guy out there didn't come and be Mr. jiyy. hehe. or... maybe I am too picky? i don't know, I just don't want to share with someone who i think he don't right for me, people who don't deserve to get what should be getting by someone else. hahaha ... *lonely poet poetic.

anyway, i am turing 17 years old *but still stuck in this 10 years old body* this 21st january. oh man, i don't like getting older actually. but, happy birthday for me... thanks for my best sista, come from Jogja just to see me make a wish after inflatable candles, but unlucky, i am so sleepy so i cant wake up in the middle of the night. sowwiee~
now please let me make a wishes ...
1. God, please ....
2. please ....
3. and last, please ....amen. because its a prayer of a girl, so i wont let you know. hahahaha...

Its "Sooo Me" Boy

2011-01-14T14:11:00.000+08:00

inspired by haryap, I make a post about this. haha. actually, I do not have specific criteria in choosing a boyfriend, but there are some great lines that are usually able to really make me in love while looking at a guy.

First, I really like a guy who is humorous. why? because they are able to make the atmosphere more life, is also able to melt the tense atmosphere. of course, I do not like someone who made up the humor, i mean... not natural. I like a natural humorous guy. got what i mean?
Secondly, I like a cool guy. he mustn't be cute, the important thing is they are cool. the difference between cute and cool, cool come from the character and personality, and cool guy definitely cute. while those who can not necessarily be cute cool. Another case with a cute guy, they aren't necessarily cool.
The third, is responsible. I like the guy who is responsible, because it would be a plus (+) in the eyes of my parents.

The rest, if it possible, he must be a diligent prayer, although he was prankish. I do not like guys who are too romantic, because romantic in my eyes is different from the perception of most people. I also like skinny guy, tall, clean, a guy that can protect me, friendly, if it is possible he's a whiz, so I'm always safe with him. he have to really care about me, because if he really loves me, surely he will do the best for me. hahaha ...

2011 Resolution

2011-01-04T09:37:00.000+08:00

because its already 2011, so i decided to make a resolution for my self. here is the list :

taller - yeah, i wish i can!! doing some exercise, jumping maybe, and praying of course.
more diligent - because i am soo lazy! this resolution especially for shalat, because in the past i don't do it 5 times a day.
thiner - i will doing healthy diet, because i think i am fat already, so its time to make my body slim.

what about study? nope. i never think about this, haha. so, ~~study~~ in my list! by the way, happy new year for all my readers, have a great year ever!

Quotes of the day

2010-12-18T13:08:00.000+08:00

so what? I don't care, even if it's true. because I'm not typical of someone who will stop chasing what was supposed to be mine, just because someone blocking my steps! will not, and never ever will! ~Me

About the Heart

2010-12-16T12:51:00.000+08:00

someone asked the goddess, where the heart gone? She say "she's still here, waiting for the right person to pick her up." that person doesn't believe, then ask again "doesn't heart like the moon? I'm suspicious, I know the hearts like him." She answered "yes, of course she liked the moon. who doesn't like the moon? even the sun can bend the knees to him." then that person feels upset, the truth is, that person who was truly wanted the moon. so the goddess say again "if you want him, pursue him. don't ever feel embarrassed or upset with heart, because hearts love him like she loved her best friend. don't ever think any kind of things to the heart, i know her more than everyone do." and that person feels embarrassed, then go away. ~someone you'll never know

Guy ?

2010-12-11T18:00:00.000+08:00

near by him, I feel happy. I can smile, laugh out loud, even I could feel that I'm the luckiest person in the world because I know people like him. I just want to know him, along with him, and live with him. Am I wrong? I never doing 'that kind of thing', I'm not one who likes to do things that I shouldn't do.

if I feel comfortable with someone, I would be very close with him. I'm not the type of a girl who likes to choose a friend, or boyfriend or whatever. I'm not someone that is difficult for the the people to approach, that is why I looked so close to many people, although most of them are guy. I'm not a player. I just feel comfortable being around them. that's all.
I do not know, what I actually wrote and try to write here, I just feel upset, do not know why. guy ... why if I get close with a thing called guy? hhh ...

For me, fashion Is ...

2010-11-30T21:00:00.000+08:00

Passion, Obsession, Ambition, Perfection

Devotion, Addiction, Motivation,

Fascination, Creation

1 day with SOUL (-)

2010-11-24T21:11:00.000+08:00

ME and my friends. DEFINITELY CAN'T FORGET YOU ALL, GUYS!

Thinkin Of You

2010-11-18T15:34:00.000+08:00

Uh, i think i'm going crazy day by day. Crazy about him. Crazy about G-Dragon. YES! i can't stop thinking about him, about my future life with him (oh, gosh, i wanna get up from this dream!). Ridiculous. How can i fall so deep with someone who i never meet? HAHA. Stupid, right? Someone, please hit me and tell me that i have to forget about him...

Him

2010-11-10T19:23:00.003+08:00

Don't know why, I really feel, I like him, huh? I can't! I wasn't allowed by me to like him. Really really not allowed. aaarrrghh! haha. maybe the feeling called "comfortable" every time he with me, was misunderstood by me. comfortable isn't a love. Correct. Yeah, definitely! haha. but ... why the words he says just makes my head full and dizzy, huh? even maybe he's already forgotten if he ever say that to me ...

Siblings :D

2010-11-03T19:20:00.005+08:00

"just made this picture. cute? or FREAK? look a like its my younger sista"

FREAK

2010-11-01T20:53:00.003+08:00

I don't know, why me. I don't know, what I feel today. I feel a bit little happy, sad, resentful (mostly), angry, disappointed. Argh! what is life? I'm really really don't understand. what is His intention to set this scenario on my life?? hemm, it start from problems of love, friends, lessons, career, and even about life, I think about lately. indeed, nothings eternal in this world. as well as some criteria that I mentioned above. Duh! see?? I started talking unclearly, where is the destination of what i said. Essentially, I am disappointed with my life. I wants 'this', but i got 'that'. awry. I hate life with a full of lies. Really really hate!!!!

Think About It!

2010-10-30T16:17:00.003+08:00

It's not easy for me to face this kind of situation, if you think I'm happy with my decision, think twice! What do I want is not obey to my ego. I just want you to change, even slightly. Don't you see how hard I make a confession of what I've saved for a long time just to keep your feeling? Dont give me a reason! You have a wonderful mean to me, but what I get from all of this? Wether should I always fall for you? Wether should I always keep silent when you do what you want to do to me, as if I was the one who always obey to you? Im not your maid! I realized, I can't be like this forever, I cant! I act like this, not because I wanted to, I act like this, because of the situation. I want you to realize something from you, that has always tormented me. your egoism. Your desire to make me down. I'm aware of it ...

Friend

2010-10-27T21:44:00.005+08:00

Because you are my best friend, so i'll never ever hurt you --- Me

Today, everything is over . all lies i ever put between me and her, today i told it to her . and guess what ? she didn't get mad at me, but she understand me . i really thanks-full to my Lord, Allah swt who has given me a friends like them, and her . i know that they'll always support me, they'll stay beside me and so i am. and for her (not the same 'her') , i wanna let you know that you are totally wrong with your mind . i really wanna slap you, straight on your face if you still have it ! don't act like you know everything anymore, okay !?

after we cried together (yes, we did), we are laughed together . and today is the most unforgettable moment in my High School . thanks so much for you, all ...

Blind Date

2010-10-23T18:34:00.003+08:00

i just brought this novel, about two weeks ago, LMAO . and i just finished read it about two weeks ago, too . but, i just wanna share my thought and feeling about this novel, because i think this novel is almost perfect .
So, its a story about Titania's life plan failed after finding Brandon, her boyfriend for three years, had an affair with his secretary . In an effort to forget the incident and the words spoken by Brandon that he is the only man who would ever want her, Titania willing to spend two thousand dollars to obtain the services of professional blind date , which promises a wedding in less than six months . With the help of his sister who 's like smartass and agent of blind date that never give up, Titania was determined to prove that Brandon is wrong . And in the end of story, Titania got very happy because she find her true love .
And, this story really really make me want to have a boy friend , haha. im kidding .

Forget It

2010-10-16T22:39:00.004+08:00

it is not easy to forget you. I think I dont care about you anymore. but it isn't so, huh? I don't know why, maybe it's just the envy that is in my heart for a moment because I've seen you together with her, while I'm still alone. I don't know why, I'm not sincere you are with her, I think you definitely do not love her. I see it in your eyes, really. do you still like me? if so, I hope you tell me, honestly. you don't want to regret it later, correct? before all of this become late ... hahaha. DAMN! stupid little girl wrote this!

Happy Time ...

2010-10-13T20:08:00.003+08:00

happy time. its seems that i dont get that word in my life pocket dictionary anymore. yes, my life is so suck this month, this year actually. lmao~ well, i hate my suck life because :

i dont get better in math. yes, that sh*t lesson!
i dont have time to get rest, because im sooo busy.
i have a mid semester test on next week. im also imagine hows the result :X

hey, she is ...

2010-09-22T16:30:00.003+08:00

She's sick, but she's got a lot of work and a lot of busyness that makes her not able to leave school and take a rest in her room. her mom was out of town. so, she's just stayed at home with his father, who did not know if his child was sick. some friends at school know if she's sick, because she became so quiet. even though she is a girl who was very active and cheerful.

Guess Who? yup. This little story about me today. I'm tired, tired!! but I could not rest.so please, wish me the best. bye for now and see ya :)

IDC !!!

2010-09-17T14:58:00.004+08:00

i don't really care if you : hate me --> talking about me --> make a big shit about me --> make your friends hate me --> and you get a lot of attention from everybody. really. I DON'T CARE AT ALL!!! just let them think you are the right person and you are the most perfect person. we all know that we shouldn't judge the book by its cover, right? maybe its so stupid if they think that you are as cool as your look *even i think you are not cool at all*. if you hate me, i CAN hate you more, aaannd, i can make your life, so sorrowww!! but i WON'T!! because i'm not as hell as your self. i just wanna make you realize that, you live in a lie. you lie to all people and so your self. what a pity life!!!

~slap you trough this post, bit*h!

School ?

2010-09-13T21:39:00.001+08:00

Shit. my holiday is over. i have to school soon. you know how it feel like? maybe it like you are baked in a fire. LOL. ahh... that picture i made while my math teacher teach in my class. it was sooo bored :D. i never ever like math. haha. and i have to face an exam (again). its a math (dying) and physics and bahasa exam. grrr... can you feel that? HARD!!!

I want this !

2010-08-26T13:29:00.002+08:00

Product Name: Nike Dunk High Custom Brass Monky Foto Minnie Mouse

Model: Nike, Nike Dunks Sneaker

Product Name: Nike Dunk High Hello Kitty Brass Monki Customized Shoes

Model: Nike, Nike Dunks Sneaker

Product Name: Nike Dunk Premium Hip-Hop Girl I White lt Photo Blue Orng Blaze

Model: Nike Dunk High Hip-Hop Girl

I love sneaker, and i want them to be mine :( . huhu, just have to save my money more so i can buy them :D

Lovely Moment

2010-08-23T16:04:00.001+08:00

this is my picture with my friend when i went to Samarinda :)

This is me !

2010-08-22T20:32:00.002+08:00

Hum, this picture taken when i'm going to school. pheuw~ its really boring, i had to study when i should be in a holiday. haha. it caused now i'm a senior in my high school, so i had to study harder to face exam next year. huh, really boring right?

Fighting For ...

2010-08-20T13:09:00.001+08:00

its hard to believe that i feel so jealous right now. haha . i don't know why this stupid things come to my heart. i don't love him. I DON'T! and i'm sure about it. but, why?

oh my gosh, i wanna throw away this 'strange' feeling, i shouldn't be jealous with him. who is he? he is not important for me. but why, when i know that he can't wait for me longer, i feel so sad? i don't wanna loose someone for the umpteenth time. i hate the way he said that word, why he is so weak? why he can't fight for his love?

disappointed

2010-08-17T15:14:00.000+08:00

I hate this state. indeed, if a friend (guy) got a girlfriend, they'll go away and leave their friends. this is what they think about: my girlfriend! what's that? I hate things like that. let's just say I'm jealous, that's true. I'm jealous! im jealous with your girlfriend. why she who had just you know, suddenly stole you from me, the longer person that you know? I'm disappointed with you, I guess you will not like that! but apparently, you are far from what I expected. maybe I'm not a good friend for you, but I'm sure, your girlfriend is not better than me. just prove it!

The Darkling Thrush

2010-08-16T11:48:00.000+08:00

I leant upon a coppice gate
When Frost was spectre-gray,
And Winter’s dregs made desolate
The weakening eye of day.
The tangled bine-stems scored the sky
Like strings of broken lyres,
And all mankind that haunted nigh
Had sought their household fires.
The land’s sharp features seem’d to be
The Century’s corpse outleant,
His crypt the cloudy canopy,
The wind his death-lament.
The ancient pulse of germ and birth
Was shrunken hard and dry,
And every spirit upon earth
Seem'd fervourless as I.

At once a voice arose among
The bleak twigs overhead
In a full-hearted evensong
Of joy illimited;
An aged thrush, frail, gaunt, and small,
In blast-beruffled plume,
Had chosen thus to fling his soul
Upon the growing gloom.

So little cause for carollings
Of such ecstatic sound
Was written on terrestrial things
Afar or nigh around,
That I could think there trembled through
His happy good-night air
Some blessèd Hope, whereof he knew
And I was unaware.

~ Thomas Hardy

Jealxxx

2010-08-14T19:45:00.001+08:00

Call me a FREAKY GIRL. i just dunnoe how to act! I began to scream louder and louder whenever you said her name, in front of me! My eyes, they can lying in front of you, but my heart, it can't lying! I don't wanna say "i love you" because i think you know what i feel to you, even i'm never told you so. i just can't shout that word out of my mouth...

HATE !

2010-08-13T21:13:00.002+08:00

i hate the way you look at her. i know that im so stupid!!! why i have this strange feeling to a boy like you? i dont even know what kind of feeling is it, i just feel im so fool :(

First Day

2010-08-11T14:50:00.000+08:00

today is the first day, we are, all Muslim in the world do fasting. wow, its still 3 hours again, but i feel so hungry already. lol. maybe it cause i dont eat much this morning, i love my what mother cooked, but it taste too spicy for me.

and you know what, last ramadhan, i got boyfriend. lol. i hope in this ramadhan i'll get another one. lol. im kidding :) i dont need a boy right now. i just need a friend who can spirit me and say "fighting!!~"

Its MINE !!!!

2010-08-11T08:24:00.003+08:00

ME: "My name is so small... :("


ANGIE: "weeekk... :PP"

ME: "Okayyy!! Give it now!!!!"

ANGIE: "you, SUCK!!!"

Have You ...

2010-08-10T15:12:00.001+08:00

Have you ever feel despised, insignificant, ignored, exiled, unwanted? Have you ever feel that your life, your death, no one care about it all? Have you ever feel that all people live happily, without you around them? Have you ever feel, you are alone, without a friend who wants to share on? Have you ever feel that all persons who might care about you, actually not really care to you? Have you ever feel, that you are played by people who you truly loved?

that's what I feel right now. hurt, broken, crushed!!! I just wanna them to know about it!!! all the pain they put me trough T.T

Whats Wrong With Me?

2010-08-10T11:21:00.005+08:00

i feel like cant breathe, when i look at him. you know, i feel like i cant stay with him, but i feel like i cant be without him. its so complicated for me...

my friend said to me: you should be honest, not just with her, and him, but also with your self...

okay, i agree with her. now, i feel like im so stupid, i cant think where my feel go now. am i love him, too? i dont wanna be with him, but dont wanna let him go... i need him, and i dont know why.

what is L for me ?

2010-08-08T13:03:00.003+08:00

I wish i never got a confession from 'him' with these word. i cant lying that I'm so glad to hear when he said "i love you", but i just cant take a breathe when i start thinking of it. i cant be with him... it makes me feel so damn sad, but i have to. i just cant let my ego control my feelings and let the others hurt. its okay if i hurt my self, but don't the others. its make me like im the worst person in this world. even i really want to be understood by the others too, but... sigh*
Love for me is still a big question. i just can feel it, different from the another feelings. it feels so great, it makes me so bright. but sometimes it make me feel insane...

thanks ^^

2010-08-06T12:47:00.002+08:00

well , i really wanna say thanks to my dearest friend , mongki :P haha. thanks for your present for me, love it so much, mongki :) . haha .
but i just got jealous with your girl friend , huh , this is what i hate , when all of my friend have girlfriend already , they'll never care to their friend again . i got jealous because i don't have boy friend yet. its so easy to have boy friend, but is so hard to find the perfect one for me :*(

YOU !!!

2010-08-02T16:54:00.002+08:00

are so LAME !
are so SUCK !
are so DAMN !

hell , yeah ! dont know why i hate you MORE and MORE day by day . i tried my best to stop hate someone , but you , ask me to hate you ! *calm down ...
okay then , i'll try to forgive all what you do to me . i'll try , even its so hard ...

Leave Out All The Rest

2010-08-01T15:35:00.000+08:00

I dreamed I was missing
You were so scared
But no one would listen
Cause no one else cared

After my dreaming
I woke with this fear
What am I leaving
When I'm done here

So if you're asking me
I want you to know

When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

And don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Don't be afraid
I've taken my beating
I've shed but I made

I'm strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I've never been perfect
But neither have you

So if you're asking me
I want you to know

When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
[End Chorus]

Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well

Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are

When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well

Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are
I can't be who you are

for someone who i love, but i cant be with ...

New Me

2010-07-09T19:18:00.002+08:00

yes , new template again and again ! because now im a senior in my high school , just wanna try to be more adult .lol and this is suits me :D

ah , 3 days , i have to do MOS to my junior . they all so cute , and some of them is very childish . spoiled to me, huh . but its alright . and you know what , some of my junior seem try to be my BF . lol . im not kidding , they always send me message and ask about my love life . :P

ah , thats all . im tired to write XD

new again !~

2010-06-25T12:09:00.003+08:00

ah , finally change this blog skin again and again . uh , i hope im not boring again with this layout . lol. and fyi , i've made blogskins account , if you want my goodies , you can check them in my blogskins .

uh , today i serve the new students at my school. wow, some of them very funny. I wanted to make it as my brother. ^ ^ but i see some of them is very suck , especially named *tit deh . lol . im sorry but idk why i hate *tit so much ! uh , i wish *tit will not get a good class .

Goodie for you part 2 ^^

2010-06-21T20:25:00.002+08:00

i've made a new layout again for blogspot , but i wont use it , because i often change my layout . so , i will give it free to everybody who want to use . just ask me ^^ . and you can check in "this love" page , i'll put it there . thanks ^^ ~

Goodie for you ^^

2010-06-21T17:02:00.003+08:00

hey all ! i've made a new layout for blogspot , but i wont use it , because i often change my layout . so , i will give it free to everybody who want to use . just ask me ^^ . and you can check in "this love" page , i'll put it there . thanks ^^ ~

Turn It Up!

2010-06-21T14:59:00.004+08:00

oh yeah , finally my boy friend's friend , Choi Seung Hyun released his new single : turn it up . oh , maaan ! its soo fantastic !!! i've heard and watch the music and MV . you should watch and have the mp3 too :3

He is ...

2010-06-16T12:37:00.002+08:00

he makes me fall in love when i first saw him . he make me cant stop smiling when i look at him . he make me cant stop dreaming , even in a day . he make me hypnotized . he got my heart , he got me .

he is the one who i love so much , even there are a lot of boys wanna be together with me . he is the one who can make me wanna live longer than i want to . he is the one who give me spirit to be better person , to be better girl . he is the one who make my heart stop beating when i look at him . he is the one who make me wanna cry when i see him because i love him too much .

he is ...
Kwon Ji Yong ~

Im Here Agaiiiin !!!

2010-06-14T15:56:00.002+08:00

Hello you all guys , i really really miss you all so muccchhh !!!~ ah . finally , my examination will over tomorrow ! its make me sooooo happy . lol . im a diligent student , but i really hate exam . i think all people do hate exam , right ? kkk ~ but, although the exam will over tomorrow , I had to wait for the subjects that must remedial. uh , i hate exam , but i hate remedial moreeeee !!!!~

oh, yea, during exams, there are some funny incident in my class. so, you know what?

when the examination is in progress, all students must collect their mobile phone. However, because me and my friend a stubborn students , then we do not collect them. and, I nearly caught out when i am try to sending a message to my friend in another room. However, I'm very clever in deceiving *lol . so I do not get caught, and only my friends are caught. lol. I really felt sorry for my friend . uh , because it still 1 day again , so i wish i can answer my exam carefully . because i dont want remedial .

hey , do you all watch world cup ? ah , its my fave program in this time . i really love World Cup ! Fighting for Germany , Brazil , and South Korea !!! Indonesia is still not coming. hooooow terrible!

hiatus

2010-06-04T17:31:00.003+08:00

i am HIATUS 1 MONTH !

EXAM ...

FIGHTING~~

whatta ?!#*@+"

2010-05-26T09:47:00.000+08:00

Uh, I'm online via blackberry :) .

I'm in history classroom now. This is so boring I think. Zzzz... Really wanna go outta here and looking for fresh air . Lol. Oh, no, I think it'll be more beautifull if I'm looking for nice guy to talkm but, yeah, there are nobody nice here, all boys in my school are suck, lame and totally jerk! I hate them all!!! Why there I no kwon jiyong in my school!? Lol. Ah, I really really and really love him. I love him soo much no matter what! I swear, I'm not lying! Really wanna be his girlfriend, and be his wife. I wish I can do that, in 2015 maybe :D . But I wish it'll be faster than I expected! :)

I hate my day! I hate my school and the people in it! I lov kwon jiyong!!! Jiyong-ahh! Be MINE!!!!!

I feel so soooo!!!!!

2010-05-25T15:28:00.003+08:00

arrrghhh!!!!!!! this all sucks!!!! I hate this day by day. This week was really annoying , racked my brains, energy and my mind too !!!!!!!!! I'm bored, i really want moved to a new place that is much more cool, free, and quiet . Where can I find a place like that???? i have too much burden . too much sadness that I buried . but its okay . Let us all be a lesson for me. I hope all this makes me become more advanced . I'm drowning and instead of making life regretting .

I stayed until now because of him. kwon ji yong ...

yes, it's true. I really believe he's in the future . You get what I mean? I hope it's not just a dream . amennnn .... I must be strong. I am strong. I am a strong woman! fighting !!!!!!!!

My layout is ...

2010-05-23T17:51:00.004+08:00

this is the *thinking* 6 or 7 or 100 times i change my blog layout . lol . i feel so boring with my blog layout. even it look cute at the first time i saw , it turn to be annoying if i see it over and over again . yes, i always being boring easily .

so, i dunnoe how long this blog layout i'll use . because now i am just made a new layout for my blog . lol . i hope the result always good. fyi, im not good at web code, html or javascript. but i like designing, so maybe its not look so great . thats why i feel kinda like something less . lol . i'll try hard again to make a better one, because actually i feel so tired to make and make a new layout every time . its not just 1 day i can finish the layout, but 2 days!!!~ OMG-D!!!!~ its so tired, huh??

DAMN!

2010-05-16T14:17:00.002+08:00

I HATE MY BLOG's LAYOUT!

i made this layout with all of my heart. but its not working as well. ugh~

Study Group

2010-05-16T12:16:00.004+08:00

ah, yess~ this is better. so, yesterday, i feel so happy and glad . uh, i really happy because im not jump into the group 4, which means the stupidest group of students in class , who is in danger, because they should be considered, whether or not worthy to the next grade. iso, im in the 2 group, which mean, im SAVE . yess~ im so happy, but i have to continue to study hard. study hard, yeah~ even im never study hard. its sound not to great if i tell here, but it feels so great for me. so, my school system is like this right now, because my school dont want any fail again. my senior didn't pass the national examination 100% .
anyway, now i can read hangul a bit , uhh~ its not too hard to read hangul, but its so hard to write hangul . i dont know how to distinguish which word i have to use. but, i'll try hard to learn it deeply. J-ah, fighting!!~

ah, oke, there is nothing important again i wanna write in this blog .~

Uh~

2010-05-14T14:27:00.002+08:00

woa, i hate this situation! i hate school!!! what kind of school it is ?? huh, i really got jealous with my sister who had graduate from school. i really wanna end my study, if my parents wish . ah... its now the school which make me boring, but the teacher and also homework. hell, yeah! a lots of homework. a ton! billion! rrgh .... im so satisfied!
i really want go to korea ... and meet Big Bang, so it'll refresh my mind maybe. ah, no... maybe i'll going crazy if i meet them. and, i dunnoe korean, even now i can read hangul a bit little . oh, yeah~ im sooo smart in mastering language. why there is no language class in my school??! stupid~~

Red, Go Together !

2010-05-12T14:18:00.003+08:00

this is the amazing song from Big Bang and Kim Yuna :]
its for World Cup, they are support Korea *of course!
hear it here if you wont any regret :D

Fighting!!!

2010-05-11T22:39:00.003+08:00

uh, from now i'll try to understand HANGUL! u know hangul? yes, its korean letter. hoho... because i really want to continue study in korea and reach my dream boy, G-Dragon!!! i hope it'll be true :] ameeen~

My Story

2010-05-10T09:02:00.005+08:00

so, i post this homework . this is from my friend, i dont know why she gave me this, im not always online actually, and im not often do visiting on her blog too :D . but its okay, thank you very much for intan :]

and also i upload this picture, its my art xD . it seems not good, but i promise to cheryl to upload my manga :] . so, the story in this manga is : im drawing my sister, and his boy friend, also my self in it :D

now, this is my story :3
umm, actually, yesterday ZIGAZ come to my school . and you know what, im doing something stupid! so i give my im3 phone SIM card to AS just because they said i can take picture with them. but, what i get? its very shit! i cant take picture with them, because my enemies in my school!!! i cant explain it, but i feel soooo suck at that time. i was cried, yes, i feel so suck. then my teacher see me cried, and tadaa ... this is the best moment, i take picture with them officially in the teacher room :D . huh, all the eyes lookin at me from the window. eat that!

My Letter

2010-05-07T17:13:00.002+08:00

so, im just wrote my letter for Big Bang and also Jiyong ^^ . umm , its kinda weird because im so nervous and dunnoe what i have to write ... i hope its arrive to them and they'll read it . lol . oh, ya, i send this letter via iBigbang, so im so thanksfull to them !! so this is the letter :

"hello , my name is jiyy . im from indonesia . im 16 years old now. my birth day is 21 january 94. i love you all guys, especially kwon jiyong .
to big bang : i really love you all, and nothing else . u all so cool , and different from the other boy band . thats why im just love u all . i knew u since 2007 , its when im still in the junior high school . i love ur songs, last farewell, so i search u in google. omg, then i know you all and im just falling in love with u.
Big Bang, keep spirit and making the best music ^^ !!!!!!

to jiyong : hello ^^ . ah, im really love you from the first time i know you ... u look so georgeous and charming . also ur shine just like sun for me. u r my inspiration and the spirit for me .. do u know, im really want become fashion designer, and i hope someday i will and i want u wear my collection ^^ . and also the other member too ^^. and, i wannna become close with u . hahahaha , impossible but its my dream. u r the biggest dream that i ever have. thats why i'll fight to reach my dream, so i'll start enter college in ESMOD in Jakarta, then i'll continue mastering in design in ESMOD Korea, so i will meet you^^ . please pray for me . kkkkk~ and also, wait for me, okay? please dont married except with me . lol . ah, please dont interest at noona because im not . lol . im kidding :D
and for ur career , uh , sometime i heard bad rumour about you but dont listen to him . i believe u r just the way u r , u r never imitate someone . keep fighting , shining, and also always become the best leader for big bang!!! i love u ^^ *im not the only person who said it :P

to seung ri : do u really like noona? OMG :D
to taeyang : always be humble ^^ . fighting!!!~~~
to TOP : u r cool and funny . always be the best hyung!!!!
to Daesung : u look so great with ur smile . keep smiling for VIP^^

i love u BIGBANG !!!!"

sayonara ~

2010-05-02T16:58:00.006+08:00

good bye to my ex-layout .
welcome to my new layout ~
is it good ??
which one better ?
:D

couple ?

2010-04-30T14:04:00.000+08:00

me and my friend . i this all cute picture ! just like an in relationship couple and so .

give me a chance !

2010-04-28T20:06:00.003+08:00

Look at my ugly face! So, guess why ??
Today, I went to school as usual. but, you know what happens, then? so I see my ex-boyfriend were together with his new girlfiend a.k.a petrol face *oh yes, her name petrol face. i made it. LMAO* in the back area of school! ugh, so lame! the thing is, my ex's new girlfriend is very sucks. if someone date with my ex is a good girl, i dont mind, but what is it?? I was wrong actually. well, why do I decide to broke up with him. but i really know if he still loved me. haha. that's what the people said and i know from his body language. he also says "why don't you give me a chance?" every time I angry to him because he is go on date with that petrol face! LOL. Amazingly, he's still listening to my anger, even though we broke up. Its true, maybe he still loved me. but what can I say? I just can't go be with him. I've made a decission, and i wont any regret . just hope he'll get the best in his life . amen ...

I HATE YOU !

2010-04-26T21:50:00.006+08:00

YOU !

Petrol Face !

i hate ya !

do you hear me ?!

get awaaaaaaaayy from HIM !

:lol:

he is my friend .

my X-BF .

don't be his GF coz i hate ya !

ps : be careful, i gonna kill ya !

today

2010-04-09T09:48:00.001+08:00

Dear Jiyongiee ,

Woa, today, the weather is very hot! I'm just like baked chicken! Today, I face 1 exam, it's religious instruction. The question is not too complicated, so I hope I can pass the exam :) .
And after that, I went to chemistry class, ( actually, I don't like chemistry but I try to love it bacause you know now I'm in the 2nd grade and I have to stay in science class :D ) , the teacher can't teach us today, so my clasmates and I just do the task from him. U know what, all of my classmates do our task together for the first time :D .
Ring ... Chemistry class is over, so I go to canteen and buy aqua, then I'm open my food suply that I brought from my home . It taste delicious! I'll make one for you if I can :D
After that, I move to art class, I made 2 pins from shells, it was very cute and unique. I wanna give it to you, because I know that you love something unique. But, I can't :( . So I'll keep it with me until we can meet :) .
Last class! Its technology and comunication time! It was borriiiingggg ... So, I'm starting to search your photo, and save it to my school computer! in my school, there are just 3 or maybe 6 person love big bang and I wanna promote big bang, because I'm famous as VIP in my class, it'll be easy to promote :) . They have to know how amazing you are! Most of students here rather countrified. LOL .
So, its my story today. I love you today, tomorrow, and forever ! :)

to : big bang

2010-04-09T09:45:00.001+08:00

Hello, I'm your big lover. Wanna introduce my self, I'm islami jihadiyah, but please call me jiyy. I'm indonesian, I was born in january 21st 94. Why I love you, its a big question that I can't answer by my self. Please help me to find it out! :)

Hmm, I love u sience I'm in the 3rd grade at junior high school *about 2007*. Hearing your last farewell-song so great, then I'm starting to get all of information bout you, and big bang of course! I love you at the first sight, I see charisma from your face, your style, and your songs and also your rap. You are such a great prince in my life! Hey, I'm not liying !

I love you so much, no matter what! I heard bad rumour about you, but I'm still in love with you. Ah, really, your popularity is just too hot! :D , so nobody can handle their feeling to love you! Including me, someone you never know, who love you with all of her heart and always avaiable for you, anytime and everytime you need :) *even I know you never need me .

jiyong

2010-04-09T09:42:00.001+08:00

Ah, I love him so much. Even I know that he'll never ever answer my love for him, or maybe he'll reject me, moreover I know that he never know who I am, I don't care about it. Really. I just love him from the start. I realize that I can't reach him of course, and I know that a lot of his fans around him and a lot of beautiful woman wanna be with him, but I don't know why I just can't get up and wake up from my sweet dream! Uh, I want and I have a will to forget all about him but I can't. His popularity is too hot and can't be cooling down for me to stop thinkin' bout him. Now I'm just hope that someday, whenever it'll be true, I just wanna be his woman. I wanna be with him. I'll always be by his side, I'll always support and I'll try hard to understand him with all of his bustle, make him smile b'coz of me. I hope "someday" is the day, start from now, untill 2 years later. Amen :)

i miss him

2010-04-08T09:45:00.003+08:00

so , that picture is my dream

its me and my boyfriend , jiyong .

he's cute right ?

u have to know, he's korean .

while im indonesian .

so its very hard for me .
but its okay, i him so much .
i miss him, i love him, i hate him .

suck

2010-04-05T22:41:00.002+08:00

today is so suck!
i hate the people in physics class.
you know what, they are so lame!
why when my ~~study groups~~ go in front of class and explain they are always complaining this and that.
shit ! what the hell they are.
i thought they understand what my group's mean,
but they still ask a bullshit!
i just want to trhow my chair in their face.

my first

2010-04-04T18:42:00.004+08:00

this is my first post .

hahah .
cute ~~enough~~ .